The what ifs, it coulds, this mights
Are not of things to concern the heights
Of your mental exhaustion
As the anxiety      rise

The what ifs, this than that
Run your thoughts into attack
Playing every scenario
Forward and back

The it coulds, be better
Are lies you sell yourself
Sinking on a prayer
Begging your mind for help

For the this mights,      work
If only they would change
But the problem is      you
Yourself is the only to blame

The right nows, next steps, and todays
Are where we find our peace and praise
In the calm waters of the present moment
We look up to the skies for just one more try

The right nows send you on your way
One foot in front of the other
So long
Are your helpless days

Behind the next steps
Your mind must make
Trust,    there will not be
A fall from grace

Because the todays
Is the day,      to
Find your strength
Where you kneel and pray

I would like to keep my thoughts on this poem particularly brief, as I find myself at the cheering end of a friendship (in fact, many friendships) of toxic relationships. There is always a common theme in the narcissist relationship, aside from the narcissist; the counter-partner constantly believing that things will change. This is not an attack on any individual going through the mind altering turmoil of this kind of relationship but a tribute to acknowledge that they are stronger than they realize.

I wish it was as simple as pausing to pray but surely by focusing on one day at time you will triumph through your discomforts. The hardest part is not thinking so far ahead that we find ourselves asking the questions again, what ifs, it coulds and it mights…To anyone who has come to the awareness of their circumstances and are in a constant battle of waging war or relentlessly waving the white flag against a narcissistic partner — you are in fact, stronger than you realize, you are in fact, braver than you can fathom, and you are in fact, the hero of your own story. Your mind and heart are resilient and you have the power to overcome when you are ready. I’m cheering you on for today and every tomorrow that becomes today.